First of all, my deepst symphathies for your loss. I, being prone to suicidal thoughts and long episodes of depression, understand what its like to live with a voice which constantly tells you to end it. Recently, I have gotten out of such episodes. However, one day, I know it will be back. It is an ongoing battle for us and living with it -- as you know -- is tough. My friend, I thank you for writing this piece. May you see brighter days and swim in clearer waters. Thanks again.